Weigh in and a quick update

Sorry I have been a bad blogger! The one day I had to blog this week and blogger was down. Life has been busy. I weighed in today at 235.4, so I was down 0.4 from last week. Considering I had a bachelorette party of Saturday and my mother's day meltdown, I am happy with any loss at all this week.

I have not had much time to exercise. After I did my 20 minute run a couple Thursdays ago I didn't exercise for a week. I did day 1 of week 6 of C25K on Thursday and now haven't had a chance to exercise again since. Unless you count dancing on a party bus on Saturday :) My arms and legs are ridiculously sore after that! I also fell on the bus, hitting my back and head which is why I haven't exercised the past two days. I am debating going to the doctor but I am starting to feel better. I have a nice bump on the back of my head and my upper back is bruised. I am hoping to feel well enough to exercise tomorrow when I get off work in the morning.

I am doing a little better since my last blog post, although I did end up having a mini binge after that post. Not horrible, but I shouldn't have done it. I ate well the rest of the week after that. So far this week is going well too!

Falling apart

I am really struggling right now. I am an emotional wreck today. Between Mother's Day and 4 new pregnancy announcements in the past 24 hours I have lost it. I currently want to binge, so freaking bad. I just want the hurt to go away. I don't know what to do. I feel so out of control right now. I don't want to work out. I want to stuff my face and forget about the pain. I hate this!!

Time to Confess

This weekend has been awful for my diet. It started Friday night at work when the formula reps came and brought cupcakes. They looked so freaking delicious and I had one. Honestly, I wanted more! Then yesterday I got called off work and went out with the husband to a friend's wedding after party. I was planning on getting back on track today but it being Mother's Day and me not being able to get pregnant has been very difficult. I thought I would be okay since we didn't have to go anywhere but I was holding back tears the majority of the day and the emotional eating was out of control. I really need to work on healthy ways to deal with all this.

I have not exercised since my 20 minute run on Thursday. That is three days not working out, the longest I have gone in a while. I plan to start week 6 of C25K tomorrow and I need to fit in some exercise videos as well. I would exercise tonight but I really feel overstuffed and sluggish since I ate so much today.

I don't even want to know how much I really weigh right now. I weighed myself Saturday morning after I started slipping up and weighed 235.8, which is a .2 gain for the week. The past two days I am sure I have gained more back however. Since I am starting over on Monday, I think I will wait to officially weigh myself until next Monday, to give myself a full week to repair the damage I have done.

I do have a bachelorette party on Saturday however, which will probably cause me trouble as well. I need to make sure to be strict with my points and exercise this week to try to make up for that. I don't think I will be able to make the dinner, but we are doing a party bus and there will be tons of drinking, of course.

I am so ashamed I did so poorly this weekend. I was really hoping to hit 30 pounds lost by next week (232 pounds) but now I doubt that will be possible. I will try not to dwell and just move on in the morning.

Nailed it!

Week 5 of C25K is over and done! Today I ran twenty minutes without stopping! I cannot believe it. Just 5 weeks ago I couldn't run over a minute without stopping. I ran a little slower than usual, 3.6mph, just to make sure I could do it. The last 2-3 minutes were killer but I did it!  Total distance ran was 1.33 miles! I ran over a mile! I hit the mile point at 15 minutes and 15 seconds. I added 5 minutes of walking to the end for a total workout of 35 minutes. I am so proud of myself. I know I need to work on speed eventually but right now I am just working on time and endurance.

Success! And then some

Tonight I did day two of week five of the C25K. This week consists of eight minutes running, five minutes walking, and eight minutes running. I did all the walking at 2.8mph as usual. The two runs I did at 3.7mph and I did the whole thing without stopping! And I didn't feel like I was going to die. AND after the five minute cool down walk I decided to throw in another eight minute run just for fun. I did that one at 3.8mph. That is 24 minutes of running total, or 1.5 miles! I am hoping that on Thursday when I have to do 20 minutes straight I can pull it off. I added more walking also to have a total workout of 45 minutes.

Tonight I also made these:

For a bridal shower I am going to. I admit, I did eat one before they were frosted to make sure they tasted okay. Unfrosted they are 6 points, frosted they are 10 points! I had 8 points to spare for the day so I still ended up being two points below my daily limit. I did have a proud moment a little while ago though. I had every intention of having a cupcake after midnight since it was the start of a new day but ended up putting it back. I know I will have one at the shower later and that is plenty! I am slowly starting to show some will power and it feels great!

Did better than I thought I would!

This is an update to my last post. I ended up going back to Jillian and doing the remaining circuits in the dvd (the even numbered circuits) for an 18 minute additional workout. These circuits had a lot more jumping exercises in them which I had to modify a bit, but for the most part I did okay. Then I walked for 20 minutes on the treadmill at 3.0mph (which as I've said, is a fast walk for me due to my short stride). All together an hour of exercise for Monday!

Cookies and Jillian Michaels

I know, those two things don't belong in the same post but today they do! I'll start with the cookies. Actually, make that rice krispie bars and cookies to be exact. I don't know what is going on but lately I have been itching to bake things. The problem with this is then I tend to eat those things. My solution to this has been eating one or two and having my husband take the rest to work. I bet his coworkers love me, lol.

Tonight I made rice krispie bars. I only ate one (4 points), kept a few for me and my husband tomorrow, and sent the rest to work with him. Then after he left I decided to make chocolate cookies because I have been craving them like no other. I made a half batch and only ate one (also 4 points). I had ate well the rest of the day and this got me to all of my points and I used one weekly point.

The best part was, after eating one I was satisfied! Normally when I make cookies I eat three at a time. I am so proud that I am able to only eat one. Now, don't go telling me I shouldn't be eating any at all, because I refuse to live like that. I love to bake and should be able to eat a cookie, especially if I ate well all day. This is a lifestyle change and my lifestyle will still include dessert. Portion control is my goal and I think I did well tonight.

As for Jillian, today I did another of her workout dvds, Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism. I bought this a few years ago but never even opened it. The workout consists of 7 circuits about 6 minutes each. Today I only did the odd numbered circuits for a 24 minute workout. The moves are pretty similar to those in the 30 Day Shred but its all cardio. I didn't want to do too much today so I am not sore for my C25K run tomorrow. I might do another workout before I go to bed or at least walk on the treadmill for a bit.

Started week 5

Last night I started week 5 of C25K. Day one is 5 minutes running and 3 minutes walking intervals. I did all the walking at 2.8mph and the three five minute runs I did at 3.8, 3.9, and 4.0mph, in that order. After the cool down I did an additional five minute run at 4.0mph. I ended up doing 50 minutes total, so about 20 minutes of running at 30 minutes of walking. My husband and I also took our dog for a walk outside for about 20 minutes earlier in the day.

I have to say, this day was not as hard as last week. My calves barely even started to hurt by the end and last week they were on fire. I even found the first five minute run to be easy! I really didn't find it a struggle at all until the extra five minute run I added to the end, and even that wasn't so bad. I really hope this means I will do well with the rest of the week at this level.

I ended up eating my exact number of points for the day. I have to watch my points this week because I need to save my weekly points for Wednesday, I am going to a bridal shower at a local italian restaurant and I plan on having pasta :) I already have my meals planned out for the next two days. I am off work until Thursday night and that is when I struggle, when I am at home and bored. Once I am back to work I know I will do fine.

NSV (Non-Scale Victory)

I thought I would share a little non-scale victory as well. I have definitely gone down some in clothing sizes. I originally wore size 22 in pants and now regularly fit into size 18 pants! Soon I will be out of the fatty section of the store :) The dress I wore to the wedding last night (though I did wear spanx to smooth things out) was a 16! I also went from size 2X scrub pants to size XL!

I had all these smaller sizes from before and its so nice to try things on that haven't fit in years and have them fit again!

Update

Just a little update on the past few days. Friday I did a forth day of C25K week 4. I did the walking at 2.8mph and the running at 3.7 mph. I was able to do it without stopping again although I really wanted to! I think tonight I will move on to week 5. Day one seems pretty painless, three runs at 5 minutes a piece. I may have to repeat day two a couple times before I move on to day 3. It seems like such a jump to go from 5-8 minutes of running at a time to 20 minutes of running!

I didn't end up exercising at all on Thursday (my plan had been to do 30DS and a walk) because I was busy watching my shows on tv (Vampire Diaries and Big Bang Theory) and then chatting with my friends and people online about them, lol. Lamest excuse ever! But they were both sooo good this week.

I also didn't exercise yesterday but it was my day off. I had a wedding and we went out to eat so I decided to take the day off and not count points or exercise (which I ended up not having time to do anyway). Roughly estimating points I used up all my daily points and all my weekly points (which I had saved just for the occasion).  Considering we ate out both meals yesterday, I had a piece of cake, and I had 4 drinks at the wedding, I don't think this was too horrible. It was nice to have a fun day without worrying too much about it. Back on track today though!

I just woke up for the day so I haven't eaten yet. I will probably have some cereal and then head to the grocery store. I will probably end up under my points again today because I will eat supper later and that's it. That should help make up for yesterday a bit.